WINTER WALKS

 

At heart I'm a real country bumpkin. Obviously, traipsing through mud waving at sheep isn't as chic as sipping cocktails in a city bar, but I am who I am.

 

I thought it would be nice to share with you one of my favourite places to walk, if not my most favourite. It's where my boyfriend grew up, in a little classic English village called Great Livermere. It's full of quirky little cottages, chickens roaming around everywhere and even the odd peacock. Although sometimes I like to ignore all the British-ness and pretend I'm in America and my very own version of the Notebook. I just need to get hold of a little rowing boat and a few swans. Doable?

 

My walking attire is not very practical really. White converse and a muddy country path definitely don't really go hand in hand, but there we go. Im not really a welly boots kinda person. I also have been living in my H&M teddy coat since I got it just before Christmas. I wear it with skinny jeans and heeled boots if I'm going out for lunch or what not, but its aslo perfect to cosy up in and keep me warm when I'm walking. Who said you cant have style & substance?

 

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ASOS PAYDAY WISHLIST

Micha Lounge Cardigan  | Slouchy textured Jumpsuit | Ray-Ban Round Sunglasses  | Monki Straight Leg Trouser | Grey Side Split Tunic | Remi Lace Triangle Bra  | Premium Stripe Jumpsuit  | Birkenstock Arizona Copper Sliders

 

 

So it appears I'm sold by anything on Asos that the gorgeous dark skinned model wears. Unfortunately I certainly wont look like her in one of those jumpsuits, she's more Beyonce and I'm Samantha Mumba. Not that there's anything wrong with Samantha Mumba. Anyway, I digress.

 

This has been a lonnnnng month, the bank fund situation is dyer and I have never wanted to shop more. It's a recipe for disaster really, but I will be strong and wait until payday. Which still seems like forever away, but I'll hang on in there. I think the first thing going straight in my basket in this uh-mazing Micha cardigan. I've been after one like this for a while after my beloved grey oversized cardigan finally bit the dust. Micha is not a brand I've heard of before, but the knitwear they have got stocked on Asos is just a dream.

I have also been pining after these copper Birkenstocks for a while now, but considering it's about 3 degrees outside I think I can wait for those.

 

What's taking your fancy this month?

 

 

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THE SACK

Topshop Oversized Sweater | Vero Moda Jeans(similar) | Topshop Boots (similar) | Missguided Camel Coat  | Zara Bucket Bag

 

 

Today was my only day off in 11 days... & although I really should have been working from home today, I decided I deserved at least the morning off. So Josh and I had a well deserved lay in and then popped into town for a spot of Brunch. This was my outfit of choice for said event.

 I picked up this oversized v neck top in the Topshop sale. I'm not really one for sale shopping, I find it all very stressful, but I'm really pleased with this little bad boy. I asked Josh if he liked it, he said yes but that it was quite "sack like". Then we concluded everything I wear is quick sack-esque, which I'm fine with. I'm clearly very inspired by large hessian bags.

 

 

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BACK TO BASICS

 

Asos Overiszed Rib Tee | Topshop Faux Leather Jacket | Zara Bag | Vero Moda Jeans (similar) | Topshop Boots (similar)

Josh and I went on a wee shopping trip the other day, saying that I only brought a foundation which I now don't like ut that's beside the point, and this is what I wore. This is my kind of "I don't know what to wear today outfit". We all have one. For me it's the trusty white tee (V-neck... always), ripped jeans and denim jacket. I did add my little fedora, but it kept blowing off and was really quite an inconvenience. Really there's not much more I can say on the matter.

 

On another, more interesting, note I have something I'm SO excited to tell you about soon. I cant wait to share what I've been planning, but for now I'm going to have to be one of those annoying "I know something you don't know" kids from school. Damn I hated them kids.

 Keep posted!

 

 

Over & out

 

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NEW YEAR COMTEMPLATING

 

I told you on New Years Day I'd probably post some weird heartfelt post... & here I am.

 

2015 was such a weird one for me.

The year started super normal. I saw in the new year full of wine, cheese and hopes for the year ahead. All was hunky dory. Then, you may know if you read this previous post , that in maybe late January/February time I started having weird panic attacks out of the blue. It was something I couldn't pin point and I just didn't understand why this was happening all of a sudden. If something had happened to me to trigger it off, I feel like I could have understood more, but I had no idea. I started to feel really guilty that I was feeling like I was, and felt quite ashamed really. How do you explain to people that one day I was fine and the next day it just happened? I felt like I didn't have a right to feel like I did. There are people in the world who have been through really terrible times and seen really terrible things. I hadn't. I lived in a lovely house, with lovely family and great friends. I just didn't have the right to be this anxious.

 It effected everything. At work I couldn't be behind the till without shaking, I couldn't go shopping without feeling overwhelmed and dizzy & I felt like I had to have everything in a routine. No change. I just wanted to get up, try and get through my day at work (which was exhausting) and then go to bed in an attempt to relax myself. This was not me. I used to love being around people, I was a confident happy person. Even interviews never used to phase me. Then suddenly I couldn't even sit in a room with people in. What the hell is this!?

I still don't understand what happened and why, but I can definitely go into 2016 being super proud of myself. I got the help that I needed, which I'm still carrying on with (it's no quick fix) but I 100% feel like I've got myself back again. I can go into the New Year knowing that I have absolutely worked my butt off. I moved house (huge deal for me), passed my driving test and my little business is keeping me busier than ever. I've also been lucky enough to work with some amazing brands through my blog this last year. Not giving up has seriously paid off.

I know this isn't a 'cool' post, but I want whoever is reading this to know that it is ok to lose yourself for a while and to be open about it to. You just need to work hard to get yourself back.

 

In the wise words of Kelly Clarkson... "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!"

 

 

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